(Friday, August 22, 2008 / 22.8.08)
things happen very fast
but it seemed so slow.....
me and felyn had a fight today
i have no idea how it happen actually....
coz felyn, liann they all had some problems with hui huan
they all....
anyways....felyn,liann,tessa
decided to do something to them
which apperently i cant say--"
sometimes follow them as i said
will feel left out.....
so me and celine went ourselves....
decided not to care abt them...
den we saw bernice crying
and we went up to them...
then dot dot dot...not important:)
felyn and li ann came up to me and called me a betrayer but they were kiddin
celine was VERY ANGRY
becoz....
when we follow them they keep whisperin among
themselves
when we ask wad thing
they will say nothing
which i think fine lah....we shouldnt care in the first place
so when we came up to them
tessa asked me which side i on
den i was like
U ALL DUN EVEN TELL US WAD HAPPEN
SO WAD SIDE SHOULD WE TAKE!
so is like wth lah....
but forget it....
i dun really mind...
i went to look for celine....she seemed very angry lah
go hall tt time she was CRYING
lots of ppl went to comfort her
including me lah....
den i told her abt the betrayin thing they were kiddin only
den li ann and felyn started scoldin her like she should not
be the one cryin lah...
den i kind of tell felyn off
coz felyn and li ann have been makin fun of celine
and tok bad abt her
so i dun think they shoud have been so fierce to her
but we shouldnt care so much either
me and felyn were explainin den it became
quarrelin.....
she was very angry of me
and called me a betrayer again
and she meant it......
i cannot do anything --"
den hui juan was tellin me tt she apologised to all of them
at least 3 times...but they wont accept her apology
so...i juz tell her if they dun accept ur apology oso cannot do anything already
coz she really meant she was sorry but they wont accept...
so wad should she do!
den li ann they all kind of get angry at me and minna for comfortin hui juan
say we betrayer....
me and minna the face chao ji black during chinese
no mood at all
went to apologised to felyn
erm yea at her blog and here,right now:
I AM SORRY!
yup....i feel so stupid.....
maybe i should not care soo much in the first place
i really feel so stupid....
the only true friend i have is caireen....
not tt the others dun have but caireen is the only one
who give me 安全感
like....
when i had a stomach ache during hmt supple
i really painful one
i managed to finish the supple
when i reached home...
caireen still sms me to see if i am all right
which i feel very touch:)
LOL
and when minna and she got problems
actually i did not really help
i juz gave her suggestions
and she bought me teenage for FREE
she say is thank you for helpin between she and minna
so sweet lah
wanted to pay her back one....but she insists on not..
this is wad i call a true friend
li ann they all sometimes i can hear my name bein mentioned
out from their mouth.....
i really hate the feelin of bein gossip
probably..li ann and felyn wont have tt feelin
coz no one gossip abt them
so go with them i feel very left out....
and i hate tt feelin
sometimes i think is better if i am alone
juz blastin music in my ear is better
others are oso my best friend....
but the only one who care for me is caireen
caireen never humiliate me infront of others before...
never make fun of me before.....
she never insult me before.......
i feel very stupid fightin over this...
i noe is very childish...
but it was quite upsettin too
i think felyn really need to think how ppl
will feel after listenin to wad mean things she say
it was quite hurtin actually.......
i am really really sorry for buttin into ur buisness
i seriously not gonna care abt other ppl things anymore
it juz makes me feel so stupid....